The investigating hippie

I have a lot of questions. At times, I sound like a toddler: why this and why that. It’s a thread of curiosity I’ve always had and which I never grew out of. Now that I’m all grown up, my curiosity finds itself in strange situations. For example, some Saturday nights I can be found at the bar with friends. Pressed up against the bar, being jostled by strangers who are dressed to impress and yelling for the bartender, I am marveling at my lime wedge as I squeeze its juice into my rum and coke. Look at this amazing piece of fruit, I’d yell to everyone who didn’t care. Or, I’d swish my drink around with the 50 straws I stole from the bar and see which ones floated to the top, precariously positioning themselves at an angle, dangerously close to falling out of the glass altogether. Why?!? And so begins an investigation post about three questions I had today:

1. Anatomy of a lime.

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To consider the next time you order a Corona: A lime is a citrus fruit. It has three main layers but the one we are most concerned with now is the inner most layer: the endocarp. This is divided into segments called “liths” (think orange slices). Inside each lith is a locule filled with juice vesicles, or “pulp”. From the endocarp, string-like “hairs” extend into the locules, which provide nourishment to the fruit as it develops. So when you are squeezing the lime into your next Corona, know that you are popping those vesicles contained within a locule, releasing tangy juices to compliment your imported beverage.

2. Do butterflies sleep?

– Nope. However, they do have a period of inactivity at night only because its too dark for them to see their other butterfly friends or hunt. They usually hang upside down underneath a leaf by using its tiny little hook feet to latch into the flesh of leaves. In this way, butterflies use less energy than if they were standing upright. Butterflies don’t have eyelids so they just hang out, processing the days activities (metabolically speaking), until the next day rises. Awesome.

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3. What do flies do when they land and what is their purpose?

Purpose: As I conducted my very basic internet research on the purpose of flies, I mostly came across a bunch of people who have such a strong hatred for flies that they have taken to the Internet to write about. So, I decided to come to terms with a fly existing as a manifestation of my consciousness, brought about to test my patience and ahimsa during asana practice. I don’t like it, but that’s that. What’s really awesome is I came across an article about how new research is finding ways we can benefit from mimicking some of the characteristics of the black fly. The black fly has particular mechanisms that enable it to inhibit clotting and inflammation, ensuring it has a free flowing, open injection site to feed from. Gross. But now scientists are working towards understanding this in order to use it for medical advancement, in patients with diseases that are complicated by inflammation but must remain open to blood flow (the opposite of clotting). Super interesting. I forgot to look up what happens when they land; for another day.

Where to go from here

I’m laid out with a mild fever and I can’t help think it’s a result of stress from thinking too much.

I leave India in a month and I have no plan.

Well, I do have an idea of a plan that involves living in an awesome giant barn with a wheel and a kiln and a jewelry bench and where I can push open the big doors and teach yoga and hold yoga retreats and have a garden and a floor loom to weave awesome yoga mats with the chakras on them. This is what I am going to do. But how??

A few days ago, I sat with one of my colleagues/teacher/friend and asked him to do a Tarot spread (Osho version) for me on this major situation: where do I go from here? The spread that I pulled was super silly…

1. Present moment: I pulled the projections card. Of course. Projections are the clouds that prevent us from seeing reality as it is. What is reality? Reality is not, for example, the economic recession, bills, insurance, having a 9 – 5, although some people will argue to the death that it is. These are just thoughts. In the Yoga Sutras we read that all thoughts break down into 5 categories. Thoughts are fine until we decide to attach to one and claim it as being true; this is what people who claim reality is having a 9 – 5, etc are doing. The category of thought this falls under is ignorance about the true nature of things, not seeing reality as it is. Fearless expression of yourself is ultimate alignment with reality. My fearless expression: being a jewelry making, pottery firing, yoga teaching, gardening inspiration.

2. Resistance: I pulled the Compromise card. I thought this meant that I must give up some aspects of the little hippie life I want in order to be happy or able to move forward…because this is what some people in my life expect of me. HA! Not so! It is one thing to meet another halfway or work towards some type of harmony. It is quite another to “cave in” and betray our own truth. And that’s exactly what I’ve been doing, limiting myself by compromising my fearless expression.

The spread went on to highlight my internal support as sharing: creating an environment where I have an opportunity to share my love, joy and laughter. External support was giving up the illusion that I have control over the external. And ultimately this all leads to maturity, where a solid base is formed from what has been experienced within.

I walk around all day on high alert. Where is my barn? What country is it in? Should I go home? How will I find this amazing barn? This continues on loop all day.

Once we stop holding so tightly onto our thoughts, we can be free.